the hi-lo

Waking up to Washington DC sunshine is quite disconcerting. There's a rush of sadness that greeted when me i woke up again.

Last night's abrupt phone call made me second guess myself again. I don't know what to say, really. What do you say to someone you care about after all the drama? As much as i want to say everything, i feel it's useless to even think about it at this point. It's up to you, dammit. Stop pretending like everything's ok when you clearly know it's not. Not anymore anyway.

I want to be able to love without restrictions, without any red tape, nobody telling me it's not time, or we can't at this point because i'm busy. I want to be able to love without having to second guess myself. Loving shouldn't be hard. I'm giving something to you, don't make a big deal out of it. GOD. It's love, dammit, not brain surgery.


Oh well... so much for a good morning :-P

Time to hit the museums.